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contentment in life

if you’re wondering as to how you’re gonna be happy with your life then here’s one word for you:CONTENTMENT

i am content in the sense that i know that where i am now is a product of where i was.,

i am content in the sense that i know that where i am now is temporary.,

i am content in the sense that i know that there are things i cannot change.,

i am content in the sense that i know these things.,

nothing lasts forever., people come and go., things deteriorate., personalities change(though some may take time)., … we age., and if you believe them vampires exist., those creatures age too.,

why am i talking about these things??., simple., it’s ‘cause it’s worth mentioning.,

it is when you know that you ain’t gonna have everything that you’re gonna start appreciating what you already have.,

it is when you know that nothing lasts forever that you’re gonna start enjoying what you already have.,

you may be doing the exact same thing you did yesterday., but hey., it’s a different day … everyday., (August 31, 2012 Friday happens only once) sure sh*t could get boring but not a day goes by that you ain’t learning something new., you may go to school everyday(if you’re a student:in my case,i’ve been going to school for 16 years now,started going to school at 3) but i learn different things everyday., it could be something academic or something practical., you may go to work but there’s always something new to talk about., something new to do., sure you’re doing paperworks again but it’s a different project this time., things may appear systematic but they really ain’t., sure you set your alarm at 6:00am everyday., but do you wake up at that time EVERYDAY??., … no., there will be times when you wanna snuggle more., times when you say “5minutes more”., times when last night was so epic that you ain’t got the strength to get up.,

so lessen your complaints(it’s owkie to complain) and start seeing things differently., annoy yourself:p if you’re getting tired of seeing the same faces everyday., look for something new(that person might’ve grown pimples overnight:D) be content with where you are now…there IS a reason, if you don’t know what it is., then be excited about it., you’ll definitely be surprised when you will.,

life is dynamic., you may be experiencing the time of your life tonight since you’re with your hubby having le sexy time., but tomorrow morning., you’ll be experiencing hell when you’re gonna be working with your boss who happens to be the biggest b*tch you’ve ever met., you may be experiencing a little bit of heaven thinking about what happened earlier at moonleaf(a hang-out place)., but you ain’t gonna be smiling tomorrow when you see the face of you BA12N teacher who appeared to be really nice by saying that she will help you pull your grades but ended up giving you a stupid 2-3-paged-report(our major subjects didn’t give us a headache,just compulsory 200% confidence:D)., you may be crying over a lost friend now but time will come when you’ll be smiling at the thought of what you’ve been through thinking:that guy was great,i miss him/er(memories are treasures)., so., if you’re down today., don’t think that it’s the end of the world., cause baby., the world doesn’t revolve around you., it ain’t gonna wait for you to pick yourself up., you have to do that on your own., and if you’re blessed enough(like me) you’ll have the help you’ll need(thankU babe)., and hey., it’s not like you’ve been “down” for all these years., way back when you were young., your mom’s spaghetti gave you the biggest smile., ;) and if you’re at the peak of life’s glory now., … lucky you., :p praise the Lord., ü

enjoy life.,

it is short(you may not realize it yet…how old are you now again?remind yourself:D)

stop thinking about what happened…learn from it., life ain’t gonna wait

stop thinking about what’s gonna happen…prepare for it., life ain’t gonna tell

stop thinking about what’s happening…enjoy it., life ain’t gonna repeat itself

so get up., and stick it to your head that where you are today is your starting point for tomorrow., ;) starting point because you’ll have a different destination by then., contentment isn’t about staying where you are now., it is about making the most of it.,

Changed prayer

Prayers can turn your life around.,

Whenever I get into something that is sad or painful., I always pray this way:
For love life (Lord, I want this man)
For my career (Lord, I want this one)

But I just get disappointed and hurt even more.,

Then I realized that I was too selfish in my prayers.,
Yes., it is right to specify to God what you want., like specifying the name of the person you wanna spend the rest of your life with., but don’t forget to acknowledge God’s sovereignty when you do so.,

I then changeg in how I prayed.,

When I was at my lowest point in my relationship., when my boyfriend started to keep things from me., when I started to feel unimportant to him., and when I started to feel that he doesn’t live me anymore., I stopped praying “I want this man to be my future husband” and started to pray
“Lord, I want this man BUT if this isn’t Your will then give me the strength to let him go, and bless him in his life. I only want what is best for him and even if he hasn’t asked for my forgiveness yet, I want You to know that I already forgave him so don’t count it against him anymore.”

Then., things change in an instant., though my boyfriend isn’t the guy I pictured in my mind in a way that he is the perfect one., he is still the guy I want to be with.,
I still want to stay with him despite all our differences., because we also have similarities.,
I still love him even if he can be very stubborn at times and even if he drinks and gambles., because unlike before., I can already feel his love to me now.,

When I failed a promotion exam for accounting., I cried 24/7 for about 3days and continue to cry after that(but not as much)., It felt so painful to not see your efforts bear fruit., i didn’t want to do anything that time., I didn’t want to go out., to eat., to even stand., I just wanted to cry and die., and even though the exam results have been made and only 97/330 takers got it., I was still selfish to think that there is nothing I want more than passing., people started to text me., asking me the results., I hated it., I didn’t reply to anyone., rather., everyone., I deleted Facebook in my iPod., I wanted to be alone.,
But I praise the Lord for what my cousin-in-law told me., she said that “it’s okay o feel sad,but you shouldn’t cry so hard cause it’s like you’re going against God’s will by wanting to force things” right then and there., I realized how selfish I was., how ungrateful I was to God., and so I prayed this prayer:
“Lord, thank you for making many people believe in me., I’m sorryto have failed this test., You know my heart and how much I love accounting., but I’m sorry for being so selfish., for wanting only this., I’m sorry for crying so hard., Lord give me the strength to move on from this and help me accept Your will for me.”

I still cry now., and I still feel pain., and the degree of pain I’m feeling now didn’t change., it is still te same as before but the thing that has changed is my attitude towards this., I don’t want to go against God’s will., I still cry and I’m still afraid to face people who might judge me., but I know that God is beside., if no human will defend me., God will definitely be there to catch me before I fall.,

Thank You., Lord., I love You., :’)

Like a child at play.,
The guardian is there to watch and stay.,
the child goes to all the different slides.,
The guardian watches as she approach the giant ride.,
She TURNS to him but he doesn’t yield.,
She CALLS to him and he ones right at field.,

:)

Happy change

I’ve never been this inlove with a man before.,
he has made me feel like i’m the prettiest girl in the world.,
the most important woman in his life.,
The only girl he loves.,
It makes me so happy that it is making me cry at the same time.,
He’s never been this wayto me., not even when he was still courting me.,
He’s made me so happy., and he finally made me feel that he loves me.,
And I’ve been waiting for so long for it to happen.,
I’m so happy with this change.,
I’m so happy with my baby now.,
He is not the same person.,
He changed…a lot., some changes I hated but with it came out a boyfriend who made me feel important to him., made me feel like I’m a part of his life., he tweets to me now., and surprisingly., he tagged me in a comment in Facebook., and I was really happy., waaaa., I’m really crying now., I hope it’ll be like this forever.,
I love him so much., and he used to hurt me., and that made me sad., everyday.,
But with this new baby., I’m more inlove., and he docent make me sad anymore., now., I’m happy., thankU Lord., I wanna thankU for this change., thankU for giving me the strength to hold on to him., I love you Lord., thankU so much., :)


True story., #change #self #instagram #photo #blog #motivational #inspirational  (Taken with instagram)

True story., #change #self #instagram #photo #blog #motivational #inspirational (Taken with instagram)

Being alive is a sign of what you can still do., what you can still change., ‘cause as long as there is life., there is still a chance:)
it’s time

It’s time to let you go; it’s time to say Goodbye
No more excuses; no more tears to cry
There’s been so many changes; I was so confused
All along you were the one; all the time I never knew.
I want you to be happy; you’re my best friend
But its so hard to let you go now; all that could have been
I’ll always have the memories; she’ll always have you
Fate has a way of changing; just when you don’t want it to
Throw away the chains; Let love find a way
Till love comes again, I’ll be OK!

Life passes so quickly, you’ve got to take the time
Or you’ll miss what really matters, you’ll miss all the signs
I’ve spent my life searching, for what was always there,
Sometimes it will be too late, sometimes it won’t be fair.
Throw away the chains, Let love fly away
Till love comes again, I’ll be OK!

I won’t give up… I won’t give in…
I can’t re-create what just might have been,
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to return….
Throw away the chains, Let love find a way
Till love comes again, I’ll be OK!
Can’t go on forever, baby; I can’t go on forever, baby…
Can’t go on forever, baby… yeah…; I’ll be OK

*****

life has it’s own time., sometimes., when things seem to be at their best., life takes it away., sometimes., when you think you’re strong enough to go through anything., circumstances will cause you to lose every strength you have., yes., changes are happening., like how your heart beat is changing right now., like how your thoughts are being diverted to things you never thought you had., yes., these changes., little as they are have a big impact in us.,

*****

you proposed to me for the second time., and love is said to be sweeter the second time around., but love is always sweet when i’m sharing it with you., but just as much as you and i allowed our love to take us., we too allowed our guards to fall down., and now we’re on the ground., i’m so tired., i just wish you’d stop bringing things up., i already did my part., i’m just so tired., i just wish you’d tell me that what i did was right ‘cause you’re already there., and that i don’t need someone else., but no., you’re pushing me away from you., and so., i quit., i won’t be pushed any further., because i’m gonna distance myself.,

*****

It’s time to let you go; it’s time to say Goodbye
No more excuses; no more tears to cry
There’s been so many changes; I was so confused
All along you were the one; all the time I never knew.
I want you to be happy; you’re my best friend
But its so hard to let you go now; all that could have been
I’ll always have the memories; she’ll always have you
Fate has a way of changing; just when you don’t want it to
Throw away the chains; Let love find a way
Till love comes again, I’ll be OK!

Life passes so quickly, you’ve got to take the time
Or you’ll miss what really matters, you’ll miss all the signs
I’ve spent my life searching, for what was always there,
Sometimes it will be too late, sometimes it won’t be fair.
Throw away the chains, Let love fly away
Till love comes again, I’ll be OK!

I won’t give up… I won’t give in…
I can’t re-create what just might have been,
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to return….
Throw away the chains, Let love find a way
Till love comes again, I’ll be OK!
Can’t go on forever, baby; I can’t go on forever, baby…
Can’t go on forever, baby… yeah…; I’ll be OK

Up in smoke

(my partner and i interviewd a chain smoker)

Smoking is defined as a practice in which a substance, most commonly tobacco or cannabis, is burned and the smoke is tasted or inhaled. People may think that smoking a single stick will do no harm to them both physically and pschologically. But little do they know that a single puff will make them want a second one and a third one until they become a chain smoker. This is because of the effects smoking does to our bodies and psyche. It is also important for us to be aware of the fact that smoking is a traitor. Why? Because the effects don’t come right away. It is like a thief that comes at night to rob you of your life.

Up In Smoke!

Dad was never the one who quits. He always is reluctant to do everything, finish it and excel at it. I’m his number one fan and he’s my role model (don’t tell I said that). Even though I lived through this world for 18 years, I really could never understand why he would not stop smoking with his conditions – diabetes, intakes of medicine with as many as 10 tablets per day , his kidney (which tried to reject him at first due to transplant) – that might be worsened by smoking.  Even though smoking boosts energy; enhances abilities and tries to reduce pain – through dopamine, adrenalin and endorphin mimicry – temporarily but that’s the rational brain talking. It never does those things, you may think of it but it never really does. As his child, it did had an effect on me to see my father as one of the people going through the path of the smokers – having persistent coughs, bad breath, and especially the path to chronic diseases such as cancer, emphysema and bronchitis – the path to early deaths. I’m always afraid that my dad will leave me, and I’m afraid it would be because of smoking.


Withdrawal = long life

            I know it’s always hard to quit a habit that you’ve already done for such a long time, a very long time especially for 45 years (my dad started smoking at 11 years old until now that his 56 years old).  He did try though, but the only reason was that he was quitting for his surgery. It was a nightmare in reality; he easily gets angry especially at my mom. Nicotine really causes wooziness – it tries to overcome the brain – then, the persistent brain always says that you need to puff or else you’ll die, but my dad did it (thankfully). But he started again after his surgery because of stress and pressure – smoking can make you at ease because of the dopamine and endorphins that are excited by the nicotine - , he says “It’s like your brain tells you ‘just one more puff it’s just one puff right?’”.  He became dependent to it. It’s like his body can’t go on without puffing. This was one effect smoking did to his body that made it even harder to quit.

 

Your family will always help

            Even though my dad is a smoker, I am very proud of him. He knows what he is doing; he is a grown man who had gone through a lot of trials and tribulations with his family beside him. I just hope that my dad would stop his smoking so that he could be happier because it would make all of the members in our family happier as well. I wish it would be that easy to quit smoking, but from the articles and stuffs I’ve heard from people and read in magazines, quitting a habit like smoking is never an easy process (especially for my mom who was also a smoker but never puffed again for 2 years now), but as a part of this family, we will always be there for him. And people should also be there to support every single person who smokes (Smoker’s Anonymous anyone ?). *

 

 

            Smoking is not something you have when you’re born. It is something you acquire. And just like any object we obtain; only we have the power to keep it or throw it away. Smoking is a choice and quitting is a choice. Indeed life presents us with many choices. Some are good ones while some are bad ones. But making a bad choice is not the end of it all. Things don’t end when we make decisions that weren’t very nice. You don’t stop in the past. We move on. Will you stop at “weren’t-very-nice” or will you do something to make things better?

if freedom is me away from you., then i’d rather be a captive., than a freeman whose heart is still with you.,
Experience

experience is the best teacher.,

it will help you make things better.,

so don’t stop at being wrong.,

pick yourself up and show your strong.,

things will sometimes be bad.,

don’t be too naive., young lad.,

truthfully., it is just the way life is.,

but know you can do something ‘bout this.,

don’t stop and let go., ‘cause you’ll never know.,

things will turn out to be great., you can always change your fate.,

Ever felt you had everything under control??., i did., was suppose to have a two-day vacation at my aunt’s place…I had everything ready., (that’s what I thought) had all 4 books with approximately 1200 pages for two books and 700 pages for my psychology book and 1500 pages for my accounting book all packed up., packed my laptop in too., but I forgot to transfer my approximately 410-paragraphed homework from my email address to my flash drive and my hard drive., why am I freaking out??., it’s ‘cause my aunt’s place doesn’t have an internet connection., sucks., … I thought I had everything ready., I thought I had everything figured out., but no., I forgot about it., and it dang hurts., the number one most painful thing in the world is seeing someone you love suffer from pain and you can’t do anything about., but for me., the second most painful thing is forgetting something so important., I didn’t have a special ending., but there’s something I wanna share., so., just to remind you., the 2 most painful things in the world to me is seeing someone you love suffer pain and know that there’s nothing you could do to help ease it., next is this., forgetting something so important., so., to all the readers of this material., for the first pain., I really have nothing to say ‘cause it dang hurts., but for the second one., it’s this., make sure not to forget anything related to what you value most., if you think you got it all figured out check it again., and again., ‘cause sometimes., we’re too blind to see our own shortcomings., whether it’s a file., a document., your pet’s food., your bills., your loved one’s birthday., your anniversary., your first kiss., your report that’s due tomorrow., your wallet., your ticket., your night light., … check if it’s ready., and if you checked it already., check it again., ‘cause checking it once may not be enough., and I don’t want anyone to experience what I experienced., … some say that experience is not the best teacher., but I wanna be different., experience is the best teacher., because it is in YOUR past experiences that you know where you went wrong and where you’ll go next so that you won’t be at the wrong again., and because it is in OTHERs’ experiences that you would know the same., so whether you experienced it or not., you learn from it., so., when things go wrong., don’t stop at being wrong., now that you know what’s better., take the next step to make things owkie., owkie??., :)

experience is the best teacher.,

it will help you make things better.,

so don’t stop at being wrong.,

pick yourself up and show your strong.,

things will sometimes be bad.,

don’t be too naive., young lad.,

truthfully., it is just the way life is.,

but know you can do something ‘bout this.,

don’t stop and let go., ‘cause you’ll never know.,

things will turn out to be great., you can always change your fate.,

Don’t keep crying because of a mistake., learn from it & move on., don’t waste your life blaming yourself because of something that’s gone.,
change in the seasons

come and let the rain pour down., but if it rains., don’t you frown.,

cause after the rain falls., the shining sun calls.,

a rainbow will appear on the sky so blue., it’s beauty evident to me and you.,

after winter comes spring., but what is spring??., it’s when flowers start to bloom again and that every snow flake is melted away., like how the snow flakes melt away in our lives when the sun shines its rays upon us., and after the rain is a beautiful rainbow.,

life is like the different seasons., always changing., but know that every change reveals something beautiful., challenges in life can either break you or make you., but know that the outcome may be your choice., as to whether you let life break you., or make you.,

i’ve been through a lot., been cheated on., had a loved one die., had to sacrifice my dream for someone., … it still get’s me teary., but this didn’t stop me., i kept pressing on., why??., because i know i can achieve more., i can be more., maybe not right now., but i know i will., and you can., cause like this rose., you will bloom when the rain stops., cause life doesn’t end when you’re down., it goes on., and if you don’t pick yourself up., you will be left behind., and it could get worse., yes., there will be a time when you want to give up., but let me ask you., we’re you angry at yourself??., we’re you angry at someone or something??., if you said yes., then you need to calm down., why??., because anger can lead you to things you never wanted if you’re sober., make sure you can think., i know it’s hard to think when you’re going through a situation but make sure you can think., and really think.,

it may still be raining now., but time will pass., the rain won’t last., cause life changes like seasons., but changes have their reasons., you are a beautiful flower yet to bloom., don’t give up now., it’s not the end., cause if it was., then you shouldn’t be reading this now.,i know you’re looking for something to cheer you up., i hope reading this did it for you., :)